Love at first sight. I never knew this kind of love existed till March 29, 2012 at 8:06 PM.I consider myself a hopeless romantic but I never fall fast or felt attached to anyone. Now I know what other mother’s feel, now I know what unconditional love feels like, now I know how to truly, honestly love someone so much and feel this insane feeling of completeness. I never loved someone so much in my entire life. Wanting to do anything and everything for, always making sure he’s happy, making sure he’s fed, he’s getting a bunch of love, hugs and kisses! it’s weird because right now I just can’t think of any kind of love that compares to this, I don’t even love my parents like this, never loved any man or woman like this. when I see him smile, laugh and when he looks up at me with his bright eyes. I love my little baby! so sweeet, sooo precious and the hugest joy in my life, the hugest blessing in my life! All he does is just poop, pee, eat, sleep, cry and laugh :) lol
i’ve had men announce they love me in public, i’ve had men drunk out of their mind and try to tell me they love me and that is always awkward, i’ve had men where i felt trap in saying i love you back when i didn’t feel the same, i’ve had men that maybe i thought was love but not the kind of love they wanted from me because i wasn’t ready a relationship, even my counselor at school called me out saying I wasn’t ready to commit to a relationship and even my sisters :/ .But when a guy says “I love you” My usual response would be,” aww thank you *HUGS* i do too” or “shuttup” and lol and walk away or look away because it’s not what i want to hear from the guy i know i have no feelings for. I love being in a relationship, I just want to be with the guy I have a great energy for, a guy who inspires me as he does with me, who wants to go snowboarding with me, go rock climbing, go hiking, plan trips, go workout at the gym with me and actually eats healthy and has some kind of knowledge about what and why he’s putting it in his body, I”m a foodie person OKAY! so I like to have something similar with the person and I haven’t met anyone yet or had that kind of conversation where he picks out my passions.
i wish I can go back in time but not too far back because I love having Xavier but I wish i can go back in time during october and november. I wish I did fall in love in the moments when I was in his arms, when he was taking me to dinner and making me dinner, I wish I didn’t have that are you crazy look when he told me he wanted to adopt my son and build a life together, I wish my heart was softer to want those things with him but I was just not drawn to him as he was to me I guess because we didn’t have a lot in common, well he had style, a fashion sense, I do love when men dress themselves so well and so effortlessly because that is just sexy, lol. I don’t know what’s wrong with me or why I choose not to be with someone who is probably right for me, that I have fun and enjoy being with. I really don’t want to be forty-five years old and having to settle down for just anybody because I don’t want to be alone. I do want my Noah or my Leo. I do want love of my own and I want a father for my son. So I hope he comes around soon because I really hate when guys hit me up with one liner pick up lines, so stupid and annoying! I hope the universe is listening to what type of guy I want in my life. So Here i AM! I will open my heart and keep an open mind for probably the next guy LOL :)
